Chapter Ten: Stubborn
I am one of the most stubborn, hard headed women that you will come across, and it runs deep in my blood. Once I have made up my mind I want something it is really hard to sway me in a different direction. That being said, I seem to put my foot down pretty heavily where my health and fitness is concerned. Call it old school, call it being busy, call it being lazy, call it being a mother of three, call it what you will. I like to eat things that are not good for you-cinnamon toast, two scoops of sugar in my coffee, bacon, tortilla chips, queso, lots and lots of carbs, lots and lots of sugar, and oh, then there is the alcohol. I love red wine and I drink it every single night. I don't drink water, I drink sweet tea. For years I really wasn't too concerned with any of this, and then I got really thin because of our car accident and I loved it. I am not fat and this is not what this is about. It is about the fact that I apparently don't want to be fit enough or I would make it happen-that is how I function as a person. So today I am talking with a health coach and I have no idea what she might say. Except for the obvious. Do everything above in moderation. Make time to exercise. Stop blaming your back for everything you can't do and find the thing that you can. One year ago today I weighed 105 pounds-I was still thin. Today I weigh 128 pounds. 23 pounds is a lot to gain over the course of a year. I need to figure out a way to be healthy and fit and happy with the number on the scale-let's call that 115-13 less than today. Just half of what I have gained. I think that is doable and manageable. If anyone has any suggestions for me let me know! Anything that has worked great for you to stay focused on eating healthy, real food-how to shop? What to buy? How to keep your kids happy while eating in a clean, not so sugary manner? Remember that I truly can't do anything like cross fit because of the impact it has on my back.
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